Saturday, October 2, 2010

The Marionette's Dreams

I opened my eyes, then promptly shut them again. The bright white lights seared the red insides of my eyelids. There were sounds around me. Soft murmurs in random pitches and odd muted clicks. -They're talking about you- my mind whispered. Why does my mind know something I don't? Which brings me back to this language I'm thinking in... it feels... familiar, yet boxy and unused. Where am I? And more importantly, who am I? -You are Eve- said my mind again. This was beginning to be freaky. the voice in my mind... it wasn't me, although it was talking to me in my own mental voice. I feels... synthetic....
I must know where I am. I must open my eyes again. I took a deep breath. It was icy cold, whooshing through my nostrils, and completely devoid of smells. I will open my eyes in three... two... one-
BZZZZZZTTTTT!!! White hot current shot through my skull from multiple points on my head. They coursed through my brain, streaking along millions of neuronic paths I never knew I had. I became a spectator in my own body as my eyelids blinked with the speed of hummingbird wings, my breaths became mechanical gasps and from my vocal cords spilled a meaningless jumble of sounds, both human and not. My limbs jerked, as if yanked by invisible strings, contorting to impossible angles. Even my heart beat as if it was trying to jump out of my chest. I didn't panic, because it was too surreal to allow for any emotions.
As fast as it came, it was over. I slumped back on my metal pyre, numbly registering the goosepimples shivering my naked flesh. I am not my own. That much was obvious. My know-it-all brain was quiet now... and thank goodness it was too. It was solving cosmic equations on it's own, for god's sake. Relief had just begun to set in, when a series of odd syllables interspersed with the previous clicks sounded out.
My brain translated for me- System check complete.
System- check-? I only had time for that half-thought, when they came in.
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It's a beautiful summers day, heady with the sweet smell of flowers in full bloom. I leaned against the old maple, thankful for its shade. My mind wandered from the book in my hand. Its minute print held no charm for me this afternoon, for I was waiting for someone.
-He's late- I thought as I toyed with the delicate swarovski-crystals bracelet. "Something to remind you of me while I'm not here." he had said. As if he wasn't in the forefront of my mind all the time...
Crunch. I leaped up at the sound of dead leaves crushed beneath a boot. Finally. I turned with a radiant smile-
It's not him. My smile melted off like an ice-cream in this summer heat. It was a man in military uniform. My heart began to thud, banging in my rib cage. What if-?
"Miss Evelyn Stanford?" He inquired in a gravelly deep voice.
"Y-yes. Yes, that's me". My voice had gone quivery. No. Please no. "Has, has something happened to....?" my voice faltered.
He said two words-- "I'm sorry."
I fainted.
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Friday, April 9, 2010

Olden:

虞美人

春花秋月何时了,往事知多少?
小楼昨夜又东风,故回不堪回首月明中,
雕栏玉砌应犹在,只是朱颜改,
问君能有几多愁,恰似一江春水向东流。

Modern:

虞学生

学校考试何时了,分数知多少?
年中考试下月中,晚上咖啡又得在手中,
去年只是应犹在,只是记忆改,
老师问我几颗A, 我说老师您别想太多!

HILARIOUS!


Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Of oaths sworn
Of grievances borne
The darkness forlorn
The white dove's mourn.

The lilies' shade
The virgin maid
Debts repaid
Promises said
The night is dark
So frightened your heart
Hush little baby do not fear
We shall always be near

The sun has gone
So long till morn'
Hush little baby do not fear
We shall always be near

Under the dark cloud's shroud
The thunder so loud
Hush little baby do not fear
We shall always be near

Always in your sight
Among the stars so bright
The guardians of the night

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Lullaby. Part of an essay I wrote.....

Misconception of Death

Life. Bright. Fleeting. Ephemeral as morning dew. Death. Dark. Unknown. Final. Two things. Contradictory. Opposites. Yin and Yang. Yet close, so close! A line, thin and fragile as a spider's thread, ready to snap at the slightest touch, separates light and shadow. You could be in the prime of life, the flower of youth, the epitome of vitality, when, SNAP! You're dead.

We fear death. There is not a truer statement on earth. Death is the grim reaper, the final countdown, the end of blessed life. Death is unknown, and what we do not know, we fear. The fight to understand is what defines us humans. We strive to conquer the forces around us, to understand the universe that surrounds us. We might now know what lies within an atom, but we have yet to find out what happens after a person stops breathing. Will his existence be snuffed out? Will his soul move on, as preached by most religions? Or will he be reincarnated into a new being? We do not know. We can conduct no experiments, run no tests. We have yet to snatch any glimmer of the secrets of death.

Yet, is this fear of death a reason, an excuse for not living life to the fullest?

TO BE CONTINUED.

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Wrote this for aural assessment. Hey, who ever knew I was philosophical?? heee heeeee

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Middle of Nowhere

I heard the jingling and clanking of a hundred bracelets and necklaces, and I knew who approached me. I also knew what she was going to do.
Pudgy hands slapped across my eyes. I sighed internally as my world went dark.
"Guess who?" She squealed. I was in no mood for her usual greeting today, preoccupied as I was.
"Zephyr........" Her name a sigh on my lips. I seem to be having so many of those lately. Pouting, my ever sunny and annoying best friend squished onto the tiny bench, making my side slam into the metal handrest. I didn't bother to move
"Ditching, Alex?" She asked.
"Yup." I didn't point out that she was, as well.
"Why?" She asked again. I can't believe it. Her curiosity actually sounded real.
"Because Mrs Willener is an old windbag," I told her. I didn't tell her my real reason.

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Wrote this during exams, actually, and I don't have any idea how to continue. Bah, whatever. I've no idea how to write about teenage angst anyway........................